dear beloved friends aka life supporters
this weekend our family attended one of the most beautiful & well choreographed weddings i have ever experienced ( i have attended well over 1,500 in the past 32 years due to my occupation )
however, weddings and births are extremely emotionally draining and reflective for me because of the memories of hopeful expectations and dreams at the time of my own wedding and birth of six children that i naively expected to continue to share for a lifetime with someone who now no longer exists...
if fact, wouldn't you know, i spent much of friday and saturday in tears asking God WHY ? !!! ( once again )
you'd think i'd know better by now !
i also should have known by now to expect our sunday's message ...
to (once again) as usual...speak directly to what "just happens" to be
MY most significant "issue of the week"...
( funny how everyone else always says the same ? ..lol )
anyway..
the theme was regarding lamenting circumstances God allows that make you ask ...
WHY? !!!
...and how to continue to worship through it ... ALL
why
wait
remember
trust
( except for specific episodes such as this time when i only had to wait two days until my answer came in the form of sunday's message)...
i think ive been in the continual "WAIT" phase for almost 12 years now
but inbetween, have also learned that REMEMBERing the undeniably awesome miracles that have been necessary for our survival this far, is what inspires the desire and ability to so ahead and wait, remember and TRUST...again
especially during days such as ...also this weekend..
when eviana is asking for a baby picture for her sixth grade graduation yearbook
the other five each have albums and file drawers full of baby photos of them alone and all together...except her
&;(
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during those first few years of financial struggles, immediately after she was born,
i had to sell all of my photography and film equipment, and felt blessed when i could at least occassionally purchase disposal cameras on sale
( total of 14 by the time i recieved the gift of a digital camera)
and by then i was also finally able to afford to turn in one at a time for development
only to discover not even one of the photos have turned out so far,
in spite of utilizing various different film development locations
now that i still have 5 rolls left, the owner of a different lab used by my photographer friends offered to take xtra care & time for possible better results, but seemed doubtful
so today i was just about to again risk another disappointment in hopes that at least maybe even just one can be salvaged enough for eviana's album
but i immediately backed out of the parking spot, realizing that i'd rather wait until i had a chance to request as many prayers as possible for what i am wishing for
yes, another...miracle
i'm going to drop off the 5 rolls of film on thursday
after wednesday's life group
where i can always count on an outpour of heartfelt annointed prayer..
...in addition to yours
thank you for being here !
&;)
2 Corinthians 1:10,11
He has delivered us from ...peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many.
Luke 17:6
He replied, “If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it will obey you.
Matthew 17:20
"..I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”
PHOTOS..BE DEVELOPED !
well...its worth a try...isn't it ?
&;)